Anhedonia – To what level are you experiencing?
I’m also interested to know if you’re experiencing depression and/or anxiety
My story?
tl;dr is no depression, 7-8 anh and get anxiety (I can panic and experience some social anxiety).
In full; I did get depression pretty bad when I was 20, which I got treated for but I’ve come to self-accept. I can now identify when I’m experiencing it and currently I’m not. Anxiety runs in the family, so that’s no surprise I got my share.
My social anxiety experience is when I must converse with people I don’t want to ask them the wrong questions, repeat something I’ve forgotten about / already said to them, reveal my lack of knowledge and of course reveal my boring life.
Anhedonia I’ve experienced since I was a kid. I’ve always had trouble with motivation and trying or starting new things. Never had an interest in sports or books, rarely find an enjoyable series of TV shows or movies (usually force the first season but can’t take more than that, rarely properly enjoy a movie), only real hobby I enjoy is electrical/electronics (obsessive, to an autistic level. But sometimes I can’t engage with it as much as I’d like to). Relationships had always fallen into place in my teens and before (school years) with a few friends but since reaching adulthood it’s too much work for barely any reward I get from them. Trying to attract a girl had almost always failed due to my social ineptness and boringness, then the few times I think I was winning their attention I had a strange need appear to back off. Only reason I wanted the girls was due to my sex drive.
These days (I’m 23) I have almost lost the sex drive (thankfully). I do masturbate a few times a week, when bored or aroused while browsing the internet. I have no desire for friends or a relationship (I don’t experience loneliness). I still live with the parents, I have $100k saved but no real desire to do anything with it, mainly due to the lack of motivation. Browsing the internet and watching YouTube videos is pretty much what I do most of the time when I’m not working my full time job, except in the weekdays when I maintain exercise and cooking my lunches. Having the job is good as it keeps me occupied otherwise and makes me a functioning member of society, and electrical work is in my interest. Also quitting and not having a job would make attaining one again later much much harder. Also I have been suspected of Asperger's as well, but I don't think I'm actually autistic.
Why am I asking / revealing this info? I’m not a diagnosed schizoid and want some information about how I compare to many of you. I'm not currently seeking a diagnosis. You’re welcome to post your thoughts and ask me questions.
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